哭

有没有一个人的歌，你听了就会哭？
有，奶茶的歌，我听了总是泪流满面。
又是一个周末，收拾被凌乱了一个星期的屋子，打开音乐，想给自己一些速度。我知道我不能放女人的歌，于是放了One Public的专辑。列表很快到了尽头，屋子却还没见个形状，然后，不自觉地就打开了Rene，然后，双眼就模糊了……
不知道到底是那音乐勾起的所有伴随着它们发生的回忆，还是看着那满箱子要带回国送给爸妈的礼物，总之，我的泪就再也止不住了。是的，我说过，我不喜欢孔老夫子，可是他有一句话，我总是记得——“父母在，不远游，行必有方。”当初，那样义无反顾地离开，当初，那样义正言辞——“离开就不想回去”，等等等等，问自己，现在还这么想么？真的不知道，千好万好，没有爸妈在身边的家总是残缺，于是，带给他们的礼物总是觉得不够，好像要一次尽一年的孝心，心里却知道，就算把整个德国都带回去也是微不足道的。
而此行，却是要把自己嫁出去，那个时候，爸妈会不会更难过，更舍不得，又或者，我会不会哭得如摊烂泥？于是，安慰自己说，哭吧哭吧，现在背地里把所有的泪都哭干，到时候就可以坚强一些，笑着告诉爸妈，不要担心，女儿会幸福的，你们没有失去女儿，女儿永远都是你们的宝贝，你们也永远都是女儿的挂念。

The King's Speech

I've been expecting this film for a long time. It has really gained its own reputation in the past days. So, finally, I got a chance to watch it this evening. Have to say, it is a bloody good film. No wonder that the Queen said she's been moved. 

I've no idea why others like this film and why the Queen was moved by it. What I figured out why I appreciate it is that it didn't only tell a story about how a king learned to make successful speech, but how a man managed to conflict with himself and was finally able to take the huge responsibility--to lead his country and his people.

Everyone has this or that weakness and was taught to conquer them in the process of growing. Some succeeded, while some failed. Sometimes one just forgot the suffer and let it go, but some other times the scar was deeply planted in one's heart, and tortured one from time to time, especially when one faced some conflicts. This is so called "self fear" in psychology. In order to get through, to make it, one has to fight, what's more important, to fight with this fear. Only when one succeed defeating this fear of self, he or she can move on and be successful, not necessarily wealthy and powerful, but with self-confidence and inner peace.

I guess that's what I learned from the wonderful movie. One's biggest success is to conquer oneself.

兔年吉祥！

今天是除夕，中国的新年前夜，一早醒来就开始哼谢雨欣的那首《新年快乐》，不想再说“独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节必思亲”这类的cliche，只想祝福远方的家人朋友们在新的一年里身体健康、事事顺心、吉祥如意！

这是成家来的第一个大节，用爸爸的话说，开始学着持家了，于是妈妈的话挂在心头——“年夜饭一定要吃丰盛咯”。不管算不算是迷信，老讲究总是有它的道理的。于是乎，一大早出门，鸡、鱼、豆芽、豆腐等等富有深刻寓意的食材准备俱全，认真地做一次家庭“煮妇”，过一个不热闹却丰富的除夕。

再说，过年这回事儿，似乎已慢慢习惯不能和家人团聚的状况了，记忆还是定格在18岁那年的年关，大人们在考虑要不要给我这个“成人”压岁钱，而我也得“痛苦地”思忖着还能不能拿压岁钱；过年早已失去了儿时的乐趣，烟花爆竹早已玩腻了，山珍海味随着生活水平的提高也不再是过年独享的食物，唯有些乐趣的大概就是新衣服了，而后来，成人后，新衣服也从过年的“传统”里消失了。于是，过年慢慢失去了原有的风味，估摸着重新拾趣要等到家里新添“壮丁”了，呵呵～

不管怎样，就算元旦时还可以拖沓，到了春节，也是再没理由的了，再等新年可就真2012了，所以，加油，努力实现"New Year's resolution"！