實名制的好處

我把這里搞成了實名制，好處就是提醒自己不要亂說話，另：倘若有人引用了我的觀點，也好注明原作者，哈哈！

Growing up

When Papa doesn't talk with me as he used to, I just feel quite uneasy. I know this is a sign that Papa finally accepted me as an adult, well, not a child any more that needs their protection. But everything just seems not so right. Is it because that although I am always eager for kind of freedom, I'm not that used to it when I really get it? I m not so sure. Anyway, I figured one thing out that I am no longer a child that needs confirmation from the parents. I should and have to get used to it. I should be confident in every action and thought of mine, without expecting that Papa and Mama say something like "Ah, you are my good girl!" I am a grown-up now and in charge of myself.
The second thing I figured out these days is that I believe I should change my way of communicating with my love a little bit, especially when we talk in front of other people. It seems that I have given him too many negations, which are indeed bad, for every one. I should let him express himself, let him finish. How can I be so sure that I'm right in every point?
Wow, a great jump, cheer up!

媽媽

今天過得很不開心，從半夜三點驚醒的那個噩夢開始，整個心就一直懸在那里。媽媽在MSN上留言給我說，她明天就要上火車，爸爸下個星期也要出去旅游，可是我的智齒明天才能拆線，我還想明天給媽媽打電話，好難過，突然之間，覺得自己像是一個被遺棄的孩子。
其實，這個世界上我最最在乎的人還是媽媽，從三歲媽媽住院開始就一直是這樣子，最最怕失去的人就是媽媽。心里也很清楚如果不出意外，肯定是媽媽先離開我，所以就想從此也要為自己找尋另一半，然而，當找到的一個人媽媽并不特別滿意的時候，我的一顆心真的不知道該如何才好了，我不想讓媽媽難過，更不能這樣，因為媽媽太難過了就會生病，然后我就會失去媽媽，這個邏輯是我從小就懂得的。但是，我卻也放不下我找到的那個人，因為兩個人在一起的日子雖然很窮可也很溫馨，我真的不知道要怎么做才好，心里只有一個念頭，就是要回家，我真的想回家，哪怕只有一天也好。