What a dilemma

I know I might be over-emotional, but thoughts just rush into your head, and you cannot simply dismiss them. 

I've been looking for some information about the tooth crone. I'm not sure whether I will do something with my two front teeth that I broke when I was about ten years old. Cited from the dentist, they were dead for like twenty years. And the colors changed also, which seemed bothering lots of people who saw them more than bothered me. To be honest, I don't care whether they look beautiful or not. My health is always my first concern. But I do care about what people think of me, in whatever aspect. So if these two teeth have some influence on that and if the artificial crone won't do any harm to my health, I would like to do something with my two teeth. The problem is that there are so many sayings spread the Internet, and it's extremely hard to distinguish which one is true. So, tough decision. 

At this very moment, I do feel that I'm getting old. Since when it's been so hard for me to make a decision? Apparently, I have some fears. Then, what am I afraid of? It is the responsibility I have to take for every decision I've made. It's not that I don't want to be responsible, but I just want things to be right, be fine. I really hate facing bad results. So, I guess I'm really old, 'cause I don't feel so energetic, so fearless as I was young. Every decision seems so hard to make, that I don't want to waste my time in fixing things. After all, life is short. I want to spend my life on some great things. This idea upsets me more. Till now, I've never thought that I'm being great. I mean, yes, I never lose the faith that I would be great some day, but in the future not now. I'm not great at present. This explains why these days I've been having nightmares, either I was run after, or I got some blood cancer. I'm so afraid of losing time and being old, and more important ending my life without any achievement. 

Then, once again, I have to go to some wise guy for help. And they say, living is already a wonderful thing. Being a good wife may not sound so great as being a CEO. But it is a great job and not everyone can do it well. They also say, being young is awesome. But being young also means innocence. You do not fear to make any decision, but the decisions you've made are quite often unwise. Say, if I broke my teeth now instead of twenty years ago, I would never ask the dentist to get my nerves out and fill something in my teeth. I would do something like what I'm doing now, being well informed, and then decide. All of these are so called experiences that you'll never get unless you become old.

So, what a dilemma, uh?